Tired but Happy and Fulfilled

The Best Feeling Ever!

I used to think that right after giving birth I will get a chance to sleep well with my baby beside me. WRONG. I got it all wrong. Since Paul came, my life changed overnight and it’s been more than one year that I don’t get to sleep well and there wasn’t a time when I wouldn’t wake up in the middle of my restful sleep. I could count the number of times I wake up at night just to feed him or to check if he is in a comfortable position, if he is sweating, I do check when his chest is rising and falling and most of all I stay wide awake just to see his angelic and cute little face.

I am sleep deprived and this often leads me to become moody and irritable. I have not only given up my own comfort but my career and social life too. My life took a 360 degree turn when my little boy came and all that gave me a lot of reasons to become #momemotional. There were moments in my life when I couldn’t help but think what my life would have been had I chosen my career in the corporate world rather than staying at home and become a work at home mom. Will it be nicer having office mates around to laugh with rather than playing with toys, singing nursery rhymes and doing some baby talks? How about working as a manager in the clinic rather than managing my own home, cooking meals and doing chores? I think it’s also rewarding getting compliments from clients and receiving words of appreciation from my boss instead of little hugs and kisses from my baby? Yes, how about wearing fashionable clothes, wearing make up and looking my best every single day rather than wearing my house clothes and looking like a mess after wrestling and playing with him?

When I think of all these things and look at my baby, everything else fades away. I can’t imagine myself being anywhere in this world than here with my boy and having to see him grow is more rewarding and fulfilling. I have to admit, becoming a mom has made me so tired, so exhausted than I have ever been in my entire life but it has also made me so so happy and so so fulfilled!

When I browsed through my Instagram account, I realized my photos are all about Paul and my husband and I. While my friends are humbly bragging of their whereabouts around the world, travelling here and there. It may trigger me to become envious of their life but there’s no way I would exchange any of it with my life now, my world is right here. NO REGRETS.

It always amazes me how some mothers gave up their promising careers to become stay at home moms like me, this too has given them such delight and something tells me I did the right thing and it is an assurance for me to know that I am not alone in this. I have God with me, my supportive husband and a full force of other moms willing to extend help when I do need one. I want to take this time to thank God for giving me a job that allows me to work at home and take care of my baby too. Not all moms get that privilege but I do.

“Lord, may I always have the heart to say ‘THANK YOU’ for all the things you’ve done and the things you are about to do. Sometimes, I may fail to see the positive side of it all, remind me that my purpose here at home is great and that my baby needs me more than anything else right now. At times when I do not know what to do, help me lean on to you and seek for wisdom from you that I may know how to deal and act on certain situations. You are the best person to run to and I trust that you will always be here for me when I need a good and loving arms to cheer me up. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen”

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Tuesday Thoughts

Random Thoughts…

Just a few more weeks til my boy turns 1 and I am trying my best not to get too emotional or even cry a bucket of tears while writing this. For whatever reason, I must say being a mom is the best thing that ever happened to me. No amount of material thing could equate what I am feeling right now. I am fulfilled, contented, joyful and so much more! There’s something about being a mom that takes my breath away. Everyday, new challenges await me and our little household but it only increases our love for each other.

Just want to give you a bird’s eye view of #PaulParcs latest development, here goes:

1. Stops playing to hug mommy from behind and lavishes me with his slobbery wet kisses.

2. Can now walk with little support.

3. Sits on his own and pulls himself up on a furniture.

4. Says, “Ba-ba” (a lot), “Dog”, “Play”, “Tatay”, “Mommy”, “Bird”, ‘Pray”, “Ball” and can associate it correctly.

5. Comprehends well when spoken to or when objects are pointed out.

6. Prays and sings (read your Bible and pray everyday), loves to listen to Hi 5 songs and other brainy baby vidz! 🙂

7. Plays with toys but enjoys our company more than anything.

8. Temper tantrums at this age.

9. A total of 7 teeth and he’s biting us like crazy.

9. Loves to eat and his fave foods are carrots and squash.

10. He is all over the place!

There you have it, our little #PaulParcs growing up so fast. Sigh, can we stop time for just a day pleasssse?!

Exag Selfie! :D

Exag Selfie! 😀

unlimited hugs and kisses from this guy!

unlimited hugs and kisses from this guy!

my handsome and cute date! :D

my handsome and cute date! 😀

look who's driving my grocery cart? lol!

look who’s driving my grocery cart? lol!

Where's the beach dude?!

Where’s the beach dude?!

find the biggest ball!

find the biggest ball!

Simple Things

Learn to Appreciate the Simple Things in Life…

From the day #PaulParcs was born, I talked nothing else but him. I’ve been very vocal about my experiences and learnings on motherhood since day 1. I shared about my pregnancy, delivery and my baby to friends, family and even in my jourblogs and I’m pretty sure others may find me a nuisance already. lol What can a first time mom do? I’m all psyched up, excited and in love with my little boy and surely even after the years have gone I will keep in mind every detail and will still talk about it again and again!

Before, whenever I’m at the mall I could recall how I used to look around the ladies’ section for pretty dresses, bags and shoes but now I go straight to the baby’s department and look for cute stuff for Paul. Sure, motherhood changes everything and though it’s the toughest job I know, it’s also the most rewarding and fulfilling!

I’m not a detailed type of person and I hate going into details as this takes up much of my time and effort. However, I realized that having a baby makes one go into details and it makes me want to take as much info and memories as I possibly could. Every single thing my son does I want to be the first to see it and I always savor every moment. Just watching him raise his hands and make a wave with each of his fingers can be amusing. I couldn’t stop myself from being amazed how a little being can bring so much joy and laughter into my life.

It was my mother’s 60th birthday yesterday, Paul and I took the chance to go to their place to celebrate with her. My son’s presence made a big difference in such a simple birthday celebration for my mom. She was grateful for having us that day and I saw how much joy a baby can really bring to the entire family. Not only to our family but Paul is the apple of everyone’s eye.

It was also yesterday that I found out his two lower front teeth started to show up. No wonder my nipples are getting sore every time he feeds. His teeth are too cute too handle that I cried after he bit my right nipple! Sob! But it was still worth it. How’s that sound for a mom? Others will find me weird but who cares. I just love being a mom!

Thank you Lord! 🙂

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I am so amazed!

 

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Family swimming time… 🙂

 

Paul's first dip!

Paul’s first dip!

Cuteee!

Cuteee!

The chicken dance! lol!

The chicken dance! lol!