Is This For Real?

I guess it is…

I couldn’t shake the thought that I’m a mom now and though it’s been 5 months since I have #PaulParcs with me, everything seems surreal. I am very well aware how this being was formed, but to raise him? well… is quite a big challenge. Now I’ve learned that a mother’s instinct is always right and that taking care of a baby becomes natural (like I was doing it for years now). 5 months is short (I know) yet it feels like we’ve had him for over a year. I am not a mom expert but when you become one you never know how much you can do and what knowledge you have in store by learning and researching about babies, milestones, toys and so on. Thought my decision to become a work at home mom will leave me stagnant BUT it proved me wrong. I’ve never learned so much information in one day for the past 5 months and yes the learning goes on and on and on…

I'm glad I chose to be with you and your tatay over my career. Career can wait and opportunities will knock once more but I don't want to miss a thing while you're growing up coz I can't bring back time anymore. Blessed that I get to kiss, hug, play and watch you sleep every minute of every day.

I’m glad I chose to be with you and your tatay over my career. Career can wait and opportunities will knock once more but I don’t want to miss a thing while you’re growing up coz I can’t bring back time anymore. Blessed that I get to kiss, hug, play and watch you sleep every minute of every day.

I love it when my husband tells me I am the strongest woman he knows coz I myself could not believe that I can do a lot when I’m alone with my baby. When my hubby is out all day to work here I am at home juggling mommy duties like working (online), taking care of the baby, doing the house chore and so much more. Of course I get tired, who wouldn’t without any help? I’m just glad that I can do it all by the grace of God. He is indeed the giver of strength. I’ve learned to appreciate motherhood more every single day. My baby’s cry and laughter have become music to my ears, every milestone he makes are little victories we celebrate and just looking at him makes my heart melt. I often ask, how can one be so in love with this little creature? Yikes, I’m getting too sentimental again, as I always do and I hate the fact that #PaulParcs is growing up too fast. Now, he can roll over in bed all by himself, the next thing I know he’d prolly be crawling and be found no where in sight. haha These may sound all petty but for me I find these things my achievements in life.

I may not get recognized by people for what I am doing, no rewards, no plaques or medals, no awarding ceremonies to honor me for being a mom but my hubby’s love and my baby’s smile is enough for me to say I am richly blessed and highly favored.

Is this for real? Yes, it is and I wouldn’t want it to become unreal lest be a dream.

“God, thank you for teaching me how to love unconditionally, to extend my patience and to love even more. Thank you for giving me the wisdom a mom needs and for the power to do things mightily. Your angels surround me, you’ve sent them to guide me. Thank you for your presence that fills our home. May you always be the center of my family as we choose to walk in your ways. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen.”

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A Normal Day

A Normal Day For Me Is…

A normal day for me is waking up to a grunting sound of an infant eager to drink his milk or a pair of little hands and feet kicking or slapping my body.

A normal day for me is prepping my lappy to work , blog away and update on social media.

A normal day for me is stay at home, give myself and my bubba the needed bath.

A normal day for me is being productive by doing house chores, taking care of my lil babe and working at the same time.

A normal day for me is seeing my hubby at the kitchen cooking breakfast, eating together before he leaves for work and have dinner when he arrives home from work while talking about how our day went.

A normal day for me is playing with Paul, hugging and showering him with so much love and affection, feeding him and putting him back to sleep.

A normal day for me is picking up the phone and have a lil chitchat with my mom or sis or simply play with my Iphone to occupy myself.

A normal day for me is writing my thoughts away, reading inspirational quotes and blogs and laughing at my fave noon time tv show.

This is how my day normally looks like and I love the challenge being with my hubby and baby every single day. I could choose not to be here to make my day not just any ‘normal’ day. however, this is what I’ve chosen and for me this is what makes my stay at home worthwhile!

Thank you Lord! :)

my happy pill... =)

my happy pill… =)

Motherhood brings out the best in me.

Motherhood brings out the best in me.

I wake up to this everyday!

I wake up to this everyday!

Growing Up Too Fast

Don’t Grow Up Too Fast…

I decided not to close my eyes or get some sleep when I saw how fast Paul is growing up. I don’t want to miss a thing. I’m starting to miss it when he was still a newborn who just sleeps a lot, doesn’t move too much and is too fragile when I carry him. Now, he is like a machine that moves a lot and it’s pretty surprising how ‘4 months’ can bring about tremendous changes to a baby. He baby talks a lot now than I could imagine, he can laugh so hard, starts to turn on his left or right when placed flat on bed and just wouldn’t stop discovering his body parts and his surroundings. God this is too much for me to take and I just couldn’t digest the fact that he is fast becoming a big boy! Sob! I will miss his tiny frame and how he looks at me like a young man in love. But I’m just too proud to say that he is well taken care of by me and Rocky, and we love him so much more than anything. I really thank the Lord for giving us Paul. What a wonderful gift he is to us!

Squishy Paul... How adorbs!

Squishy Paul… How adorbs!

Facts On Breastfeeding

On Breastfeeding

Okay, so today I just remembered that I haven’t mentioned in my previous jourblogs that Paul is overweight. HUWATTT?!!! Yes, he is overweight! 7.6kgs for a 3 month old is apparently big and heavy. No wonder I get so tired and weary at the end of the day. Woah! Our pedia said its okay, no need for a diet since he will need his baby fats in the coming months when he will be active and all over the place. Besides breast milk is perfectly safe and healthy for baby, doc said we will start to worry about his weight when he is already 1 year old and still overweight. I am just grateful that God gave me overflowing milk to feed Paul. I’ve read online information on breast feeding which proved to be very helpful and I found these facts surprising:

  1. Pressure from others can affect your milk let down.
  2. Baby can survive with just drops of breast milk up to forty days. The reason a baby is crying is because of the sudden change of environment (from mom’s womb to outside world) and not due to hunger.
  3. Mother’s should allow ample time for her breast milk to flow; usually it takes 3 days before it will start to produce milk.
  4. Mother’s supply will always satisfy baby’s need, do not believe others when they say your milk is not enough.
  5. A healthy diet can also help a lot to produce more milk. Drink lots of water too!
  6. Pregnancy and breast feeding are interrelated, which means whatever you’ve experienced emotionally and physically when you were pregnant is a factor to consider on your breast milk production.
  7. Breastfed babies are happy and contented babies!
Always smiling even when asleep. :)

Always smiling even when asleep. 🙂

I guess being a mom has brought me to a whole new level. I am learning a lot everyday and everyday is superbly awesome! I have yet to share about Paul’s developmental milestones. And oh, 2 weeks ago he had his first PENTA vaccination and he didn’t cry, only a loud yelp. Haha He is so brave and strong, told him it would be like an ants bite, small but painful. He only cried later in the afternoon due to fever but all in all Thank you Lord!

Being A Work At Home Mom

WAHM…

Today is exceptionally beautiful, I am playing my Christmas playlist and I can’t wait til it’s Christmas. It will be our first time celebrating as a family. Yesterday was a holiday and we just stayed at sisi’s place while I worked. Paul had a lot of nannies watching over him, which is a good thing coz I was able to rest my arms from carrying him. He’s becoming more aggressive during playtime, he grabs, hold and put his toys toward his mouth and makes loud gurgling sound. He’s so pleased! The boy can hold his back and neck steadily too! In 2-3 more months he’d prolly be rolling over, crawling and can stand with support. I love that Rocky, me and Paul are a family now; it feels good to be with them all the time. Thank you God! Amazing!

Whenever I remember how my life used to be minus the pee, poo and puke it makes me want to go back and just enjoy my life. Each time I see photos of friends who are successfully working abroad it made me stop to think, whatever happened to me? I can be working abroad too buying stuff I want, do some traveling and give my family whatever they want. I have become so insecure to the point of questioning God if I will ever be able to achieve what I really want for my own life. Recently, I noticed that Paul is growing up so fast that I could not also imagine not being able to witness that in the next months or even years to come. I forgot what it really means to love one ’s self and have begun to look after Paul’s welfare, putting his needs on top of mine. Guess motherhood really changes everything. I have learned to appreciate breastfeeding and being here with him 24/7 despite working at home too. Most of my friends who are also moms tell me they could not do both at the same time and I just really want to thank God for the strength and for giving me the ability to be a WAHM (work at home mom). It is a privilege to see my son grow, to be a helper to my husband and to test the limits of what my body can do all by the grace of God.

I listed down some things which I know have been a huge help to us when I decided to become a WAHM:

1. Breastfeeding has helped me and my husband save 4K-5K pesos per month just to feed our son. I do believe God created such to provide for our bubba and has designed the breasts to produce milk. This is the reason why I am so much grateful to God for answering our prayers of overflowing milk before Paul came. I have other mom friends who have given up on the thought of breastfeeding their babies because they believed no milk is coming out from their breasts or the baby doesn’t know how to suck. How it breaks my heart that they’ve given up so easily for their baby’s sake. L It takes a lot of guts and will power if you really want only the best for your LO (little one). Someday, I will look back through all these times when I had the opportunity of feeding my child directly. Though Paul might not remember it at all, wonderful memories will remain in my heart and the bonding will forever be there. I pray that moms out there will also see how beneficial breastfeeding is to them, their babies and to their husbands.

I am a proud breastfeeding mom!

I am a proud breastfeeding mom!

2. I’d rather look after Paul than have someone else take care of him. I know I could just hire a nanny or ask my mom or my mom in law to watch over my son while I’m in some office working. Sorry, I’m not sorry to say I am at ease taking care of him and watching him grow whilst working. It is a joy for me to be independent with my own son and husband at home. If I want some help, I’d hire a stay out helper to clean the house and do the laundry or cook when I’m working but leave the baby caring to me. It pays to be a hands on mom, and again, another 2K-3K saved per month.

With mommy around, PaulParcs is happy and uber healthy!

With mommy around, PaulParcs is happy and uber healthy!

3. Then the LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper who is just right for him.” Genesis 2:18

I strongly believe God created women to help empower their husbands. Yes, husbands are the provider but the Bible clearly states that we must be a helper to him. Help in such ways to lessen the burden by being thrifty and wise. If we can do it at home without the need of a house help then do so to at least help in the budget; don’t buy unnecessary stuff and stop complaining or nagging. Ask God for wisdom how you can be a suitable help to your husband and make your house a joyful home.

Our happy little family.

Our happy little family.

Pretty Mom@28

28 Beautiful Years…

I am a year older today! Woohoo! I had a blast on my birthday. I got everything I prayed for and even more. My birthday wish list was all given to me by my hubby! Haha I ate lots of cake, got to spend time with the whole family, bought new wallet, hair iron and blouse. I have new sandals, printed photos of Paul and went out window shopping. I didn’t know simple things can make me happy until this year. I could honestly say this is the first time I felt so contented and happy on my birthday! Facebook greetings by friends flooded my wall (some with pictures), I am so blessed that a lot of people love and admire me and our little family. How can one not love life when God has given you much too much to be grateful for? Everything is just awesome, thank you Lord! I will start this year right by having a heart filled with gratitude and praises to our God! Happy birthday to me and daddy!

breastfeeding, anywhere strike!

breastfeeding, anywhere strike!

Midnight surprise for hubby during his birthday. :)

Midnight surprise for hubby during his birthday. 🙂

Kenshin movie date after 3 month hiatus… lol

Kenshin movie date after 3 month hiatus… lol

“To everyone who greeted me on my birthday, a big THANK YOU! I got what I prayed for and even more. This is the best birthday I’ve ever had (so far), spending it with people who really matters to me. To Rocky, you are an epitome of a man after God’s own heart. Happy 3 blissful years of an imperfect, undeserved yet blessed marriage to us. Where would we be without God’s grace and love in our lives?! Thank you God for keeping us intertwined forever! Life is so much better with you and #‎PaulParcs around. You both are the best gifts I’ve received. God be glorified forever!”

PaulParcs@12 Weeks

Another Milestone…

Nursing has become a huge part of me, how can it not be when I do it every 2-3 hours every day? At first I found it too tiring and stressful having to wake up in the middle of the night just to feed Paul, as time goes by it has become so easy for me to latch him and feed him. Things can really be done by practicing, it isn’t perfect but it gets better and better. I am a proud breastfeeding mom, it’s so rewarding having to feed the baby with your own milk and the fact that it doesn’t cost anything means I’m also helping with our finances. Thank you Lord for the abundance of milk and for answering our prayer to make it overflow!

Right now Paul is soundly sleeping after vomiting half of his feed tonight. I don’t worry one bit though, I know its normal and part of growing up. He smiles a lot, can see at a greater distance and recognizes me more and his tatay. He is such a people person—he loves it when there are many people, he is our celebrity baby. His photos on Facebook reaches up to 200-300 plus likes; his newborn pic even got 700-800 likes. He cries louder this time but only when he’s hungry other than that he is a happy little tot! He can now sit down with support, keeps himself busy using all his senses. He’s learning to grasp things; his hands are all over his face and lands on his mouth each time. He likes it when we talk to him and even follows what we say like “LAVU!” (his version of I love you and What’s your name? “Poooooolll, Ahh!” and other cute baby sounds. He can also lift his chest and head now when on his tummy. Lights and bright colored walls or pictures are his new best friend; he talks to it like it’s talking back to him! I know it sounds creepy but it does make him happy so I find it all good. And finally, he looks at me like a lovesick little guy while I’m working and it makes me want to stop working and just get all over him. Ahh I could go and on telling stories of Paul’s milestones and it’s just so precious to tell this story even if I have to tell it again and again.

Curious lil bunny!

Curious lil bunny!

Our lil sumo wrestler...

Our lil sumo wrestler…

Smart kid reading a book! haha

Smart kid reading a book! haha

One of our early morning sun bathing.

One of our early morning sun bathing.

Can sit with support... :)

Can sit with support… 🙂